Not sure why I allowed myself to lag a day; guess I wanted to just keep the dream to myself, even though I keep this blog to myself too.

I went to sleep the other night feeling scared/sceptical- that God is giving me this chance while knowing I would ultimately fail.  Like how Jesus knew Judas betray him and Simon would deny him.

Yeah, it wasn’t a fun thing to put myself through, but I know I did.  None the less… ugh, I don’t know what’s stopping me from sharing this.

I guess what I know and want to reiterate to myself is how even if this dream was indicated towards me, I know I wouldn’t allow myself to feel exempt but to continue striving to be able to make it home with God..